FINALLY!!!

finally finished my 1st presentation for my 2nd year...
not very confident abt it bec we were over-shot!!!
supposed to be a at least 30mins presentation+seminar...
think we over shot until almost 50mins ba...
jia lat...
duno how?

after this presentation also made me realised alot of things...
ugly side of human beings...
so scary!!!

2dae also another incident happened in my flat...
my flatmate has been using my utensils n things all these while...
and nw those things tt are supposed to be white becomes YELLOW!!!
some more sometimes used already NEVER washed!!!
so i FINALLY got d courage to confront her...
then in d end... she turned over n argued until like it's my fault to have upset her wor!!!
y like tt?
she said she just used whatever things in d kitchen bec she duno who they belong to leh!!!
so i told her she SHOULD ask before using other people's things... (of course still in a nice way n smiling... TRUST ME!)
am i right or wrong?
but i think i did right!!!
and i also think this is basic manners to ask people before using other people's things... right???

sigh...
saw so many negatives side of people today...
made me realised so many things...

is it because of these behaviours that wars happened?
is it because of these behaviours that conflicts happened?
is it because of these behaviours that unhappiness happened?

what can we do to reduce conflicts?
by confronting the person and telling her basic manners will cause conflict...
but how to correct or help the person who do not realise it?

HOW? HOW? HOW?

sad sad sad... =(

NO JOKE!!!

OH NO!!!
no joke man...
i juz plucked off FOUR strands of WHITE HAIR!!!
ALL at the same side...
OH NO!!!
wat m i thinking SO HARD tt so many white hairs coming out!!!???!!!???
so scary....
i was looking at them n refusing to throw them away...
n thinking wat have i been thinking to cause them appear!!!
my head is feeling so painful now after plucking them off...
sigh...
hmm... must be thinking hard how m i going to finish my last year of studies here ba...
=(

What happened to me?!?!?!

Oh no!
duno wat happened to me...
haf NOT been slping well for d past few days...
so SAD~!!!
i used to slp all d way till moring de...
but these few days have been waking up 2-3 times in d middle of d nite...
AAARRRGGG!!!!!
duno izit bec of d iced kopi i drank which made mi haf NOT quality slp...
anyway... hope i can be back to NORM soon!!! =(

yest... 15Oct i got a report to hand in...
GUESS WAT?
i oni started writing on TUESDAY!!!
THIS IS REALLY D 1ST TIME MAN!!!
d thing is... i'm not gan cheong abt it at all!!!
n still quite confident tt i can do a GOOD JOB & score quite well for it...
haahaahaa...
canot b over confident...
of coz... this report is back up by DAIMOKU de...
nt anyhw den wait till last min den finished it up 1...
in d end... i stayed up till 2am to finish up d report and have to wake up at 6am to go for my lessons...
but... ok lah...
still very awake to attend lessons...
heeheeheee...

its SO easy to see my own weakness when i'm here...
juz realised a weakness in myself... i'm not as expressive as ang mos...
or to be even stricter... i can't react FAST enough when im in front of ang mos...
bec i recalled when im in sg... i think i can react quite fast de???
i think this might b bec of d barrier inside myself tt i reali got to breakthru...
sigh...
must reali work on this...
so tt i can tok to ANYONE n ANYWHERE!!! =D

have been reading up lots of Sensei's guidance to gear up & work towards my GOALS here...
still got a long way to go...
but i MUST be CONFIDENT tt i WILL MAKE IT!!!
bec Sensei IS confident of tt!!!
so I can't disappoint my mentor...
JIA YOUs JIA YOUs JIA YOUs!!!

finali got myself placement...
will b working in a hospital setting...
think this is definitely going to b a very different experience compared to wat i went through last year...
this placement i will learn how to help children to divert their attention & calm them down when they are nervous & scared during surgery n while staying in hospital...
hopefully i can create value in their lives & of coz... mine!

i am reali inspired by d SUA n SUJ school song when they sang it in front of Sensei!!!
watched Sensei's video on tue at d usual place in bethnal green...
almost forgot how to go there...
bec haf been 4mths since i last went there...
their spirit is REALI HIGH!!!
IN FRONT OF SENSEI~~~~!!!
when will my turn comes?????
SOON... i think...
heeheehee...

oh ya... Ikeda Peace Centre in central london is opening on 1st Novemeber 2008!!!
we will be having a SD KIck-off mtg on 15NOv there!!!
haahaahaa...
so looking forward to it...
then i can meet tiew leng there le...
haahaahaa...
so excited!
hope to reali revitalise myself n renew my determinations to further improve myself!!!

LET'S JIA YOUs together!!!
YEAH!!!

I'm BACK on my BLOG!!!

Hi everyone!
thank you so much for your encouragement that you have been reading my blog...
sincerely hope that this little blog of mine will continue to encourage you in singapore and ME, especially, in london...

I will try to update as frequent as possible...
so... pls stay tune! =D

SGI-UK NEW YEAR GONGYO AT TAPLOW COURT!!! 010108

WOW!!!
ITZ SO PACKED AT TAPLOW COURT TODAY FOR D NEW YEAR GONGYO!!!
so happy!!!
itz my FIRST TIME attending a big SGI-UK meeting...
gan jue hao hao o!!!
ZHEN BANG!!!

I AM SO TOUCHED when General Director of SGI-UK Robert Samuels announced that SGI-UK has achieved a membership of 10,010!!! i reali thanked Gohonzon for the great achievement!!! n almost shed tears... simply TOUCHED by their EFFORTS!!!
the atmosphere is simply GREAT!!!
to mi... itz like going to Japan kenshuu tt kind of feeling!!!
haahaahaa....
although i did not go for Japan kenshuu b4...
but i treat every meeting here as a training ground for mi so that i can REALLY go JAPAN for KENSHUU!!!
heeheehe....

the whole new year gongyo is so relaxed n at ease!!!
NO FOMALITY!!!
even General Director juz said a few words... but these few words oredi very TOUCHING!!!
he said he will work hard like he had never done it before in his life!!!
MD chief determined to home visit 100 DIFFERENT man for 2008...
he declared honestly to all of us that he did not achieved it in 2007... he oni did 50+ different man... but he met some more than 10x!!!
so++ -- got over 100....
but he is so strict with himself tt he is determined to do it this year!!!
SUCH ADMIRABLE SPIRIT!!!!
im so impressed by his courage to admit in front of so many ppl tt he did not achieved his determination for 2007!!!

bec SGI-UK has achieved 10,010 membership....
Sensei had specially asked SGI-UK GD to take a photo of all who are present for d new year gongyo n send it over to Japan... n heard it will b published in Seikyo Shimbun!!!!
WOW!!!!
HAO GAN DONG LEH!!!!!
I M IN SGI-UK!!!!!
WOW!!!!
SO FORTUNATE TO B PART OF THEM!!!!!!
heehee....
n as a token of encouragement... Sensei oso sent some folders for each of us who r present at the new year gongyo....
it juz arrived yest!!! 31dec2007!!!!
n today WE GOT IT!!!!!
VERY NCIE FOLDERS!!!!!
will show it to u guyz on my facebook.....
n i got a copy of SGI graphics...
WOW!!!!
FANTASTIC COPY!!!!!
haahaa....
d words SGI is in GOLD de leh!!!!!
n it showed the conferment to Sensei in university of glaslow in 1994!
it reminded mi again of my resolution!!!!
i deeply feel that everything is arranged for mi to b there on 1 JAN 2008!!!!
REALI A GREAT START of A GREAT STRUGGLE!!!
but I will DEFINITELY FIGHT IT CHEERFULLY!!!!
YEAH!!!
i oso met up with SGI-UK YWD chief n asked her abt d conferment thingy....
she oso said itz TOUGH!!!
but she can assist mi if i need help!!!
haahaahaa....
WONDERFUL!!!

i did not mention tt EACH CHAPTER oni got TWO tixs for this new year gongyo!!!!
n I AM ONE OF THEM!!!!!
FORTUNATE!!!!
nothing elase to describe other then GOOD FORTUNATE n EVERYTHING IS ARRANGED n IN MOMENTUM!!!
i deeply understand WHY I M THERE!!!!

good fortune got a ywd drive mi there n drive mi back!!!
SAVE SO MUCH $$!!!!
heehee....

n i oso met alot of ppl along d way....
bec im alone...
so ppl will come forward to talk to mi n so on...
n I MET A FRIEND FROM SSA!!!!!
haahaahaa....
CHAO KAI XIN DE!!!!!
we talked for a while n exchanged email to keep in contact....
met 2 malaysians...
n of coz ppl from UK!

on d way to taplow while in d car....
i am really TOUCHED by HOW THEY TREASURE their KAIKANs....
they treat TAPLOW COURT as SENSEI'S HOUSE!!!
when they r happy.... they will go there....
when they r sad n wana cry... they will go there too!!!!!
they feel tt there is nothing to hide when they r in SENSEI'S HOUSE!!!!
how wonderful!!!!!
this is something i have never thot b4....
so now i must treat ALL KAIKANS in SINGAPORE as SENSEI'S home too!!!!
n OF COZ UK's too!!!!
YEAH!!!

i oso made a small souvenirs for them!!!
n it turned out NICE!!!
haahaa....
think many of u might miss all d souvenirs i made ba...
will do more b4 i go back singapore so tt i can share with all of u lah...
no worries!!!

then after photo taking... we got a TOAST!!!
all of us gathered back n each of us got a drink...
n we TOAST to ADVANCE TOGETHER WITH SENSEI IN D YEAR OF CAPABLE PEOPLE & DEVELOPMENT...
2008 MUST BE A YEAR OF VICTORIES FOR ALL OF US!!!!
n CHEERS!!!!
how wonderful...!!!!

n i find this very special!!!
all the children who r present at the new year gongyo....
ALL OF THEM WERE GIVEN A GIFT!!!!
these gifts were filled with our DAIMOKU n all of them lined up to go up stage to receive them!!!
heehee... so CUTE!!!!

got 2 cultural items.... EXCELLENT!!!
too bad i cant video them down for u guyz...
bec i dun haf d permission to do it...
i did ask abt it... but no response....
so sorry guyz...!!!

got a gosho study too...!!!
heehee....

all in all....
EXCELLENT... WONDERFUL... FANTASTIC... HEART WARMING... RELAXED... NEW YEAR GONGYO!!!!
no feeling of senior leaders n members tt kind of feeling....
ALL OF US R LIKE ONE BIG FAMILY WORKING HARD TOWARDS D SAME GOAL N STRIVING ALONGSIDE WITH SENSEI!!!!!
d feeling is SIMPLY GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after this new year gongyo... went to another daimokukai for Sensei's birthday!!!
we chanted towards Sensei's 80th birthday from 3.30pm to 4.30pm... counting down to Sensei's birthday!!!
HOW WONDERFUL!!!!
heehee....

simply like d feeling of being involved in d activities here...
no fomalities...
heehee....

hmm... think so far ttz all i wana share...

JIA YOUs COMRADES!!!
JIA YOUs FRIENDS!!!

A GREAT YEAR AWAITS YOU!!!!

HAPPY 2008!!!!!
YEAH!!!
=D